Dear High School Self

Dear me in High School,

You will be quite surprised later in life. You honestly were close-minded to certain things that you realize would have been a big mistake. It is so true.

You never wanted to take Psychology or Sociology and that sounds really odd. I am saying that because you already had the interest in both of them. I am saying that because me as a college student know that Sociology is the study of the interaction among all people and Psychology is study of the mind, which helps you to understand people better. You already were interested in helping people living in poverty in high school and that is connected to both subjects. You were already asking people questions relating to both Psychology and Sociology.

Now you will be quite surprised by this. You made a big mistake when it comes to tragedy in high school. You first discovered it in ninth grade through Romeo and Juliet. You never knew tragedy was part of theatre until high school. You will learn that tragedy is way more than sad. The only reason why you were close-minded to that genre because you thought it was just as world of sadness and no more. Each time you read a tragedy, you ignored it and pushed it far back and thought it didn’t belong in theatre. Honestly, you should have discovered that there are tragic musicals in high school. In high school, you discovered Les Mis in 2009 and West Side Story in either 11th or 12th grade, but it didn’t cross that either of them are tragedies.

You will realize after you graduate high school that tragedy is not even what you think it is. A tragic musical actually will make a big impact in your life and that musical is called Les Misérables and that one is very tragic. Through that musical, you will realize that you shouldn’t have treated tragedy as poorly. I understand it is easy to just say you will hate tragedies because it does sound like just a sad genre. But you will realize tragedy is not just a world of pure sadness. Les Mis does not have that kind of nature and same goes for Rent. Both carry an inspiring message and both are home to positive emotions. Les Mis has an underlying spiritual theme and is a tale of hope, love, compassion, forgiveness, sacrifice, humanity, and redemption. So I am telling you that tragedy shouldn’t have been ignored in high school.

Later in life, you will grow so much. You were able to discover your strong spirit in those years, but throughout college years, that strong spirit will grow and will be challenged. Through things like Martin Luther King Service Day, Campus Civitan, The Gathering, Fall Break, 12 Hour Prayer, and the Bristol Pilgrimage, you will discover your strong spirit is much stronger than you believed. You will realize there is so much to discover within you. Your love of musicals will eventually turn into a passion. You will  have some pitfalls in your life, but try to know how to get back up.

What are some things you would tell your high school self?


Letter to My Future Self for the 2017 to 2018 School Year

And so the adventure begins


Be brave


Dear future self (2017 to 2018),

It is intimidating to think that the upcoming school year is my last year of college. True, I know that the last year can seem scary, but also exciting despite being filled with some sadness. No matter what you are assigned in theatre, be willing to make sacrifices if you get something bigger than house manager. That might mean going to less gatherings and spend less time with the club you call family and the social group that you call your mini family. That is only due to the fact that if you have something bigger than house manager, that would mean going to rehearsals. It might seem crazy to be graduating with two minors, but that sounds very impressive. Because you are going to be a theatre minor, there could be a chance of getting more involved in Gardner Webb’s shows.

Next year, try not to over worry so much. I know that constantly happens leading up a test or even worse final exams. Also don’t be kind of nervous about making the switch from dorms to suites. Living in the dorms was wonderful, but there was never a good roommate experience. Remember that some of  those living in the suites are people you have already met. Those suite-mates I am certain will not lead you to have a bad roommate experience.

People might challenge your faith once again. I know it can be quite difficult to be an Episcopalian at a Baptist school. They just believe very differently than you do. No matter what they say, always keep the strong spirit you have been given by God. Stay true to the beliefs you believe when it comes to spirituality.

Do not be quite as distracted by the blog. True, I know it is a big stress reliever. But due to some things coming up next year, it might mean writing on the blog less or even checking up on it less. It just depends on when classes happen or what role you are given in the theatre.

You have grown a lot since you first transferred to Gardner Webb. True, you still have a very small comfort zone, but you have already proven to take the risk and do something outside of your comfort zone. One such thing was becoming president of your club or agreeing to move the suites. Agreeing to move to the suites was one big thing to do outside of your comfort zone. It might take some getting used to when you move to the suites. Not only are further away from everything, you are living on the third floor. At least, the suites are still on Campus. You are living in the suites and you might be able to view more sunsets since you are closer to the lake.

Make the most of next year. Next year will be your last year of Gardner Webb. You were meant to be at that school. Entering college in 2012, you never would have imagined you would have been a Sociology major or even a theatre minor. That was because at the time, you never wanted to take Sociology or even Psychology. You also were not a musical fanatic like you are today. You were at community college and were so ready to spend time at Gardner Webb. The main reason why you were not a musical fanatic when you started college five years ago was because Les Mis was not even part of your life yet.

Above are pictures of me throughout my college years. The Pippin picture and the stage door picture occurred after my first semester of college of Gardner Webb, which was in 2015. I saw both Pippin and Les Mis in London the same summer and both were dates with my mom. The picture of me on the hike and the Newsies picture was from summer of 2016. The picture of me dressed as Eponine was taken this summer.