Dear High School Self

Dear me in High School,

You will be quite surprised later in life. You honestly were close-minded to certain things that you realize would have been a big mistake. It is so true.

You never wanted to take Psychology or Sociology and that sounds really odd. I am saying that because you already had the interest in both of them. I am saying that because me as a college student know that Sociology is the study of the interaction among all people and Psychology is study of the mind, which helps you to understand people better. You already were interested in helping people living in poverty in high school and that is connected to both subjects. You were already asking people questions relating to both Psychology and Sociology.

Now you will be quite surprised by this. You made a big mistake when it comes to tragedy in high school. You first discovered it in ninth grade through Romeo and Juliet. You never knew tragedy was part of theatre until high school. You will learn that tragedy is way more than sad. The only reason why you were close-minded to that genre because you thought it was just as world of sadness and no more. Each time you read a tragedy, you ignored it and pushed it far back and thought it didn’t belong in theatre. Honestly, you should have discovered that there are tragic musicals in high school. In high school, you discovered Les Mis in 2009 and West Side Story in either 11th or 12th grade, but it didn’t cross that either of them are tragedies.

You will realize after you graduate high school that tragedy is not even what you think it is. A tragic musical actually will make a big impact in your life and that musical is called Les Misérables and that one is very tragic. Through that musical, you will realize that you shouldn’t have treated tragedy as poorly. I understand it is easy to just say you will hate tragedies because it does sound like just a sad genre. But you will realize tragedy is not just a world of pure sadness. Les Mis does not have that kind of nature and same goes for Rent. Both carry an inspiring message and both are home to positive emotions. Les Mis has an underlying spiritual theme and is a tale of hope, love, compassion, forgiveness, sacrifice, humanity, and redemption. So I am telling you that tragedy shouldn’t have been ignored in high school.

Later in life, you will grow so much. You were able to discover your strong spirit in those years, but throughout college years, that strong spirit will grow and will be challenged. Through things like Martin Luther King Service Day, Campus Civitan, The Gathering, Fall Break, 12 Hour Prayer, and the Bristol Pilgrimage, you will discover your strong spirit is much stronger than you believed. You will realize there is so much to discover within you. Your love of musicals will eventually turn into a passion. You will  have some pitfalls in your life, but try to know how to get back up.

What are some things you would tell your high school self?


Letter to My Future Self for the 2017 to 2018 School Year

And so the adventure begins


Be brave


Dear future self (2017 to 2018),

It is intimidating to think that the upcoming school year is my last year of college. True, I know that the last year can seem scary, but also exciting despite being filled with some sadness. No matter what you are assigned in theatre, be willing to make sacrifices if you get something bigger than house manager. That might mean going to less gatherings and spend less time with the club you call family and the social group that you call your mini family. That is only due to the fact that if you have something bigger than house manager, that would mean going to rehearsals. It might seem crazy to be graduating with two minors, but that sounds very impressive. Because you are going to be a theatre minor, there could be a chance of getting more involved in Gardner Webb’s shows.

Next year, try not to over worry so much. I know that constantly happens leading up a test or even worse final exams. Also don’t be kind of nervous about making the switch from dorms to suites. Living in the dorms was wonderful, but there was never a good roommate experience. Remember that some of  those living in the suites are people you have already met. Those suite-mates I am certain will not lead you to have a bad roommate experience.

People might challenge your faith once again. I know it can be quite difficult to be an Episcopalian at a Baptist school. They just believe very differently than you do. No matter what they say, always keep the strong spirit you have been given by God. Stay true to the beliefs you believe when it comes to spirituality.

Do not be quite as distracted by the blog. True, I know it is a big stress reliever. But due to some things coming up next year, it might mean writing on the blog less or even checking up on it less. It just depends on when classes happen or what role you are given in the theatre.

You have grown a lot since you first transferred to Gardner Webb. True, you still have a very small comfort zone, but you have already proven to take the risk and do something outside of your comfort zone. One such thing was becoming president of your club or agreeing to move the suites. Agreeing to move to the suites was one big thing to do outside of your comfort zone. It might take some getting used to when you move to the suites. Not only are further away from everything, you are living on the third floor. At least, the suites are still on Campus. You are living in the suites and you might be able to view more sunsets since you are closer to the lake.

Make the most of next year. Next year will be your last year of Gardner Webb. You were meant to be at that school. Entering college in 2012, you never would have imagined you would have been a Sociology major or even a theatre minor. That was because at the time, you never wanted to take Sociology or even Psychology. You also were not a musical fanatic like you are today. You were at community college and were so ready to spend time at Gardner Webb. The main reason why you were not a musical fanatic when you started college five years ago was because Les Mis was not even part of your life yet.

Above are pictures of me throughout my college years. The Pippin picture and the stage door picture occurred after my first semester of college of Gardner Webb, which was in 2015. I saw both Pippin and Les Mis in London the same summer and both were dates with my mom. The picture of me on the hike and the Newsies picture was from summer of 2016. The picture of me dressed as Eponine was taken this summer.

Blogging Goals

Currently, I have some blogging goals set in mind. Yes, some will give me more difficulty. So here is my list for goals I hope to accomplish on this blog.

  1. Gain 500 followers by the end of the year- currently have about 210
  2. To add back more spiritual posts
  3. Have posts not related to musicals and spirituality
  4. With musical posts, try to talk about some things that haven’t been blogged about before


Uniqueness About Prayer

Just last night, my school had a 12 hour prayer event in our Dover Chapel. I did not get much sleep, but it was worth it. For me, there is not a wrong way to pray and I hope people realize that. The traditional way is quietly with your hands together, but for me, a different way of prayer works better for me. For me, I find it easier to pray to God through the art of writing. I feel like God listens better to me when I actually write them down. It actually helps me express my thoughts and allows me to find time to figure out what to prayer about.

Some people pray better thought praying out loud, some people pray better through the traditional way, some people pray the best through writing, and some people pray the best through drawing out their prayers. I hope people understand the importance of having God in their lives. Prayer is a way to deepen our relationship with God. It is a way to tell God the importance of him in our lives. Prayer is unique for everyone and everyone has different things they want to pray about. Prayer for me was something I struggled with for a long time, but once I realized that God listens to me the best through writing, I realized that prayer is important.


Showing God’s Compassion

Therefore if you have any encouragement from being united with Christ, if any comfort from his love, if any common sharing in the Spirit, if any tenderness and compassion, then make my joy complete by being like-minded, having the same love, being one in spirit and of one mind

-Phillippians 2:1-2

How should we make sure humanity still exists? According to this passage, we should be similar to Christ even though the circumstances will be different. If we love like Christ did and let the Holy Spirit live throughout us, humanity will never die. Love is the biggest force of all and we should not let fear divide us. We need to be compassionate and kind towards others. We should live a life full of Christ because without him, life would be even more difficult to endure. Christ set an example of us and He showed us the importance of love and compassion. We are guided by the Holy Spirit, which dwells in us and it dwells in us because we are made in the image of God. We should never let the devil control our lives and break us further apart. Living in Christ is the best way to live and he doesn’t give up on us. Showing compassion, kindness, and love towards others will help fix this broken society.




Keeping Faith in God

For I know the plans I have for you, ” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future

-Jeremiah 29:11

This quote is so true. It does resonate with me. Because I am a college student,I am still discovering yourself. You are still learning important skills to succeed in the real world. You are realizing what you are meant to do with your life. I knew since high school that I wanted to major or minor in Spanish and now I am a Spanish minor, which will be useful later on. I also knew what my calling was, which was reaching out to those living in poverty and homelessness. Since than, I realized I had this special and deep connection to that community and still have no idea why. But the moment I realized that the vast majority of the world was living in poverty, I just I wanted to do something to help. 

I still am developing my relationship with God even though it is strong. I am still discovering what God given gifts I have. One of my favorite God given gifts is my strong spirit. By trusting in God and holding faith, I am able to thrive through college. God does have plans for every single one of us. By keeping our faith in him, you will have a future and will have a relationship with him. He does not plan to harm you because he loves you so much. He wants to show you hope, which is an important part of spirituality. God always makes things happen at the right time. Even when you are faced with darkness, keep an eye for the light because it will always be present.

If you are currently struggling, don’t think you will be stuck in it forever. He will help you get through it. I can’t wait to see what God has planned for me. I know that there is a future waiting for me. Cannot wait till the day comes when I start working in Nonprofit. God is good and does not cause harm and he truly cares about you.

Light Overcomes Darkness

Arise, shine, for you light has come, and the glory of the Lord rises upon you. See, darkness covers the earth and thick darkness is over the peoples, but the Lord rises upon you and his glory appears over you. Nations will come to your light, and king to the brightness of your dawn

-Isaiah 60:1-3

After Jesus was born in Bethlehem in Judea, during the time of King Herod,Magi from the east came to Jerusalem and asked, “Where is the one who has been born king of the Jews? We saw his star when it rose and have come to worship him.”

When King Herod heard this he was disturbed, and all Jerusalem with him. When he had called together all the people’s chief priests and teachers of the law, he asked them where the Messiah was to be born. “In Bethlehem in Judea,” they replied, “for this is what the prophet has written:

But you, Bethlehem, in the land of Judah,
 are by no means least among the rulers of Judah;
for out of you will come a ruler
 who will shepherd my people Israel.

Then Herod called the Magi secretly and found out from them the exact time the star had appeared. He sent them to Bethlehem and said, “Go and search carefully for the child. As soon as you find him, report to me, so that I too may go and worship him.”

After they had heard the king, they went on their way, and the star they had seen when it rose went ahead of them until it stopped over the place where the child was. When they saw the star, they were overjoyed. On coming to the house, they saw the child with his mother Mary, and they bowed down and worshiped him. Then they opened their treasures and presented him with gifts of gold, frankincense and myrrh. And having been warned in a dream not to go back to Herod, they returned to their country by another route.

-Matthew 2

At last night’s student-led worship service, the sermon was about these two passages. It was dealing with how we respond to the light. 10% of our life is what happens to us and 90% of our lives is dealing with how we respond.

When King Herod heard about Jesus Christ, he responded to the light with oppression. He ordered the Magi to find the baby in Bethlehem and worship him. In addition, he wanted the Magi to report back to him and say where the baby is so that he could worship him. But in reality, King Herod wanted to kill Jesus because he was opposed to the child. But when the Magi didn’t report back to Herod, he ordered that all baby boys under the age of two in Bethlehem to be killed, but Joseph was warned in a dream to flee.

The same goes for real life. Do we oppose, feel indifferent, or do we worship the light? If we choose to feel indifferent to the light, the real tragedy is that it can lead to opposition. The best option of all of these is to worship the light. It doesn’t matter how we worship Christ. We can worship through singing Christian songs, praying, dance, coloring, or writing. When we encounter the good news of Christ, we can’t just sit there.

The light is stronger than the dark. The light will overcome all darkness. I choose to worship the light instead of opposing or feeling indifferent to it. My strong spirit helps me keep a close relationship with Christ. I feel like I am going on the right path towards working in Nonprofit and I trust God with all my heart. Christ came to fix all of the darkness and he died on the cross to save us from our sins. The gifts the magi brought to Jesus represent a desire for Christ.

Everyone needs Christ in their lives. He helps us when things are tough, stressful, or hurtful. Light is stronger than darkness and the same is true for love. Love and kindness is what humanity truly is. So if you have the desire to have Christ in your life, never feel indifferent or opposed to the light.