My Wicked Journey

In today’s post, I decided to talk about my journey with the musical, Wicked. I have talked about the meaning behind the musical, but never talked about my journey with the musical in detail. There were be some holes in it because parts of my journey I don’t remember when they happened.

My journey with Wicked started in 2006. I was only 12 and my mom took me to New York City to see Wicked on Broadway. Little did I know that when I saw Wicked, it would have a huge impact on my life. I remember that my favorite song, “Popular”, was  the main thing I remember. I ended up buying the soundtrack after seeing it on Broadway. I don’t when it was, but Elphaba became such an important part of my life. The other two characters I fell in love with was Glinda and Fiyero. I remember that I always hated “No Good Deed” and “March of the Witch Hunters”. Also Wicked truly has my vision for musicals, which is a heartfelt story filled with spectacle, dance, positive and negative emotions in the score, comedy, romance and a strong emotional connection.

Honestly I don’t know it was, but I don’t know when I realized Wicked was home to a love triangle. But what I do know is that it had a relationship to the first and second time I saw Wicked. The second time I saw Wicked was in high school and I was more vulnerable then than the second time. I came in being aware of positive and negative emotions in the score. I feel like I already knew about the love triangle along with the main story of friendship and acceptance. I was more vulnerable in the second round.

Wicked actually was the musical that sparked my love for musicals. I began to understand what an emotional connection was, which clearly shows through my personal bond with Elphaba. As time went on in middle and high school, I realized just how much I related to Elphaba and that is a huge reason why I was able to begin to understand an emotional connection. I even began to understand that musicals have an emotional  center to them. The main songs where I definitely knew sad belonged to was “I’m Not That Girl” and “For Good”

The third time I saw Wicked, I was more vulnerable than the second time. For the first time, I began to remember the song that is not in the soundtrack, which is “The Wicked Witch of the East”. I still have been overlooking both Nessa and Boq along with the Wizard and Madame Morrible.

In my mind, “I’m Not That Girl” was still just a sad song and nothing else. Little did I know there was more to that song. I went for a third time because I wanted my dad to get the opportunity to see it and yet he gave me the better seat because the tallest guy in the auditorium sat in front of me. Also I was aware that the love triangle was fascinating and provided a wonderful emotional nature, but I was still confused at Fiyero’s role in the love triangle as in why does the plot twist even happen.

A huge part of my Wicked journey had to do with Les Mis. In the first rounds, I was already aware of sad, but I had no idea that one musical emotion was an emotion I was 100% blind to. “I’m Not That Girl” was just a sad song in the three times despite feeling more vulnerable to the musical. Well, Les Mis made me discover heartbreak for the first time. I saw Wicked a third time a few months after I realized heartbreak existed in the musical emotion, but still wasn’t existent in Wicked.

Enter “On My Own”, it took an entire year for me to realize that “On My Own” was heartbreaking. Well, I was able to connect “On My Own” to “I’m Not That Girl” when I realized both were unrequited love songs. It  took “On My Own” and memorizing the lyrics for to realize “I’m Not That Girl” is a heartbreaking song. But one piece of the love triangle was still hard to understand so I was determined to understand Fiyero’s role in the love triangle when I experienced Wicked for the fourth time.

I saw Wicked for the fourth time on January 30th, 2016. By having the new knowledge that “I’m Not That Girl” is heartbreaking, I knew I would feel more vulnerable. In addition, I was seeing Wicked with Gardner Webb, an university that changed me for good. I had an understudy as Elphaba and she was brilliant and so was Glinda and Fiyero was incredible.

I was determined to pay closer attention to him and “I’m Not That Girl”. By closely examining the lion cub scene, I was able to pick up on the fact that Fiyero had a crush on Elphaba in his days at Shiz, but seems so unsure of it, but it made me understand why the love triangle’s plot twist even happened in act II. Also in the lion cub scene, it was the first time Elphaba realized that she was falling in love with him, which affects just how heartbreaking “I’m Not That Girl” is because it doesn’t have room to be fully heartbreaking and is only moderately heartbreaking and the melody sells that. It took hearing rumors of Elphaba for him to realize he truly loves Elphaba and hates that Glinda is supporting everything they are saying even though she hates it. So he left her because he realized his true feeling for Elphaba.


Well, the first three rounds I saw Wicked, I always hated “No Good Deed” and expecting not to remember or even appreciate the scene. Well, my Elphaba during the fourth time made me appreciate the song. I finally could pick up on its emotions, which is another reason why I felt the most vulnerable. I was to realize the incredible energy found in the song along with Elphaba’s anger and frustration after thinking she failed at saving Fiyero through her spells.


So Wicked has had an incredible journey. It has deepened so much over the years in terms of emotions. The love triangle became more and more complex over the years and its emotion changed a lot based on the fact that “I’m Not That Girl” went from being a sad song to slowly building up to being a heartbreaking song. Yes, this journey has a few plot holes because I don’t remember when I discovered certain personality traits of Elphaba at what point in the journey. I still overlook some things. But without Wicked, the love never would have been sparked in the first place. All of these years made Wicked what it is and how I describe the different characters.

The link below is a review from the fourth time I saw Wicked


What Wicked’s Love Triangle Once Was Viewed

The Wicked love triangle is a special one to me because it was the first one I ever connected with. The love triangle was very different from the time I was 12 to the time I was 19. In those days, I saw the stage show three times. This post will talk about how I used to view the love triangle once upon a time.

Possible Spoilers:

I don’t quite remember when I realized I knew Wicked was home a love triangle, but I do know it had a connection to the first two times I saw Wicked, which was in middle school and high school. I remember in high school knowing that Wicked’s love triangle was fascinating and emotional, but I don’t think I realized why I thought it was both of those things. Before college, I already was aware of the plot twist that happens in act II when the unrequited love shifts from Elphaba to Glinda.

I honestly don’t know how much I realized “I’m Not That Girl” was part of the love triangle, but I definitely did not call it an unrequited love song and I did view the song as sad. I feel like I knew that these two women loved the same man, but at the moment he was in love with Glinda, but not Elphaba.

I don’t know remember how I interpreted the song, but I definitely saw the song as being sad so it was one of the first sad songs that really stuck, which is part of why Wicked showed me the emotional side of musicals. I definitely knew “As Long As Your’e Mine” was part of the love triangle, which is a love duet between Elphaba and Glinda and I did not understand the irony behind that song.

By the third time, I was very aware of the nature of the love triangle. “I’m Not That Girl” in my opinion was just a sad song and nothing else. But I was still very confused at Fiyero’s role in the love triangle. I did not understand why the plot twist happens at all. Such as why did it take until act II for him to realize that he loves Elphaba or why he broke up with Glinda even though I love how this love triangle is set up in the end.  “I’m Not That Girl” was developed as far as it could go so it just stayed a sad song during the third time. From the first to third viewing, I only paid attention to the songs part of the love triangle and not the spoken scenes connected to the love triangle.

But everything I already knew did prepare me for the fourth viewing, which was last year.

Do you love the Wicked love triangle and if so why? Was there a time where you interpreted it very differently then you do now?

Memorable Friendships in Musicals

I realized that I have blog posts mentioning memorable couples, families, and characters, but I have never mentioned memorable friendships I have come across. They have already been talked about, but never in the same place. Below is going to be a list of memorable friendships and I will explain why I love that friendship.

Possible Spoilers:

  1. Elphaba and Glinda- this friendship is the first friendship that comes to mind when I think of musicals. The musical after all talks about their friendship and they start out as rather reluctant roommates and they form a close bond. Even when they both fall in love with Fiyero, they don’t let a boy get in between them. Even when Glinda is in a relationship with Fiyero, Elphaba does not try to steal Fiyero away from her and Glinda does not try to steal Fiyero back when Fiyero enters into a relationship with Elphaba. The song, “For Good” shows just how deep their friendship is and how they have touched each others lives and changed each other for the better.


2. Jack Kelly and Crutchie- these two characters are from Newsies. Their friendship and bond is shown during “Santa Fe (Prologue). Jack is quite protective of Cructhie especially because Crutchie has a bum leg. He does not want Cructhie to end up in the Refuge because Jack knows through experience how horrible that place is and knows just how vulnerable Crutchie will be there. They are so close and they do sleep on the same rooftop. When Cruthcie gets arrested later on in act I after a big fight breaks out , it causes Jack a lot of inner conflict because he knows Cruthcie will be sent to the Refuge and knows his friend will be quite vulnerable there


3. Newsies- I love the brotherly love they have for each other. They are like this one big family. Jack is the leader of them all. You first realize how amazing their bond is during “Carrying the Banner”. When Pulitizer raised the prices of the papers, they go on strike to stand up for what they believe in and they support each other.


4. Friends of the ABC- similar to the Newsies, is the Friends of the ABC. They are from Les Mis. Enjolras is the leader of this group and just like the Newsies, they have a brotherly love for each other. This group is a political group and are planning an uprising in response to the weak government France has at the time. They are so passionate towards their cause and even when they know they are going to lose, they still stand up for what they believe in. The first scene you meet them as a whole is during “Red and Black” and each song they sing is full of passion and hope. But “Drink With Me” isn’t full of hope, but instead is full of sadness because they know at that point, they are most likely going to lose and most likely going to lose their lives.


5. Rent friends- Mark, Roger, Mimi, Angel, Collins, Maureen, and Joanne form a very close bond throughout Rent. They are like family and even in the midst of fear, they live in the moment and in love. They do struggle at times, but they always remain close friends.


What are some memorable close friendships? What is your favorite musical friendship?

The Unexpected Musical Couple

Spoilers will be ahead:

Of all musical couples, I like to refer to Elphaba and Fiyero as the unexpected couple. Why do I call them that? Well, in Wicked, you honestly don’t expect them to get together. In act I, both of them do have feelings for each other, but Fiyero is in a relationship with Glinda at the moment and Elphaba is coping with unrequited love so Wicked is home to a love triangle, but a very complicated and non-straightforward one.

Throughout act I, Fiyero seems to be a bit unsure of his feelings for Elphaba. From the point of view of an audience member, I interpreted that Fiyero does have a developing crush for Elphaba, but he doesn’t seem fully aware of it and continues to stay in a relationship with Glinda. It was during the Lion Cub scene where you start to notice the feelings that Elphaba and Fiyero have for each other, but Elphaba is defiantly more aware that she is falling in love with him. So she is coping with unrequited love for Fiyero at the moment not realizing that Fiyero defiantly has a crush on her.

So eventually, the two become a couple you wouldn’t expect especially because Elphaba is green and does not quite fit in and would expect her to continue to have unrequited love for him. It would take rumors being spread about Elphaba for Fiyero to realize that he truly loves Elphaba and that Glinda is not the girl for him and so he breaks up with her so it can be questioning especially if you weren’t paying close attention to Fiyero in the first act. This happens in act II and he has truly matured at this point.

It is clear during “As Long As Your’e Mine” that Elphaba and Fiyero are a mature couple and that shows how much they have matured throughout the course of the story. The song is very mystical and they are a perfect couple for each other. Fiyero does accept Elphaba for who she truly is.

Part of my love for Fiyero comes from how much I love this couple and that he accepts Elphaba for who she truly is even though she is green. The fact that Elphaba ends up with Fiyero in the end shows just how complex Wicked’s love triangle is.

Even after “As Long As Your’e Mine”, their love for each other shines. Fiyero protects Elphaba whenever she is danger and she tries to save him when he is in danger. The moment when the guards try to arrest Elphaba, Fiyero defends Elphaba because he loves her and he is sent to the fields to be tortured and because of Elphaba’s love, she tries spell after spell to try to save him. So their love for each other defiantly is full of courage and maturity. “As Long As You’re Mine” is a wonderful example of how much I love this couple.

On a side note: Elphaba and Fiyero started to became a favorite couple of mine starting in 2006 at the age of 12 when I saw Wicked on Broadway.

Is there a musical couple in musicals you did not except to love? What do you think of Elphaba and Fiyero as a couple? Do you find Wicked’s love triangle complex?

Analysis of the Lion Cub Scene

This is still on the topic of musical love triangles. I want to focus on one scene that is connected to Wicked’s love triangle. Wicked’s love triangle is the first one I ever emotionally connected with and I find it to be the most complicated.

Spoilers Ahead:

Well, the Lion Cub scene could easily be overlooked the first time around. The first time you see the musical, there is a plot twist. In act one, Elphaba is feeling unrequited love for Fiyero, but in act II, Fiyero realizes that Glinda is not the girl for him and breaks up with her and starts going out with Elphaba so the unrequited love shifts. The plot twist is one of the reasons why this love triangle is unique. So why exactly does that happen? Well, let’s look back at this lion cub scene for some hints.

Leading up to the Lion Cub scene, Elphaba sees a scared Lion Cub in a cage and casts a spell on her class, which doesn’t affect Fiyero. The two run off into the woods somewhere to free the cub. Now, it is important to pay attention to the conversation the two are having and the way Fiyero is acting around Elphaba. Clearly the two have wonderful chemistry and Fiyero is flirting with Elphaba. In this scene, they are arguing, but in a  playful way it seems. There are clues that point to the fact that in this scene Fiyero might actually have a crush on Elphaba.

I actually think he does have a crush on Elphaba, but deep down doesn’t realize it at this point in the musical. The love triangle in Wicked can be questioning as to why does the plot twist even happen in the first place. Towards the end of the scene, Fiyero is trying to get Elphaba to explain why her spell didn’t affect him and in that moment, she realized she was falling in love with him and so the love triangle subplot has begun.


So what are your thoughts on this scene? Do you think in this scene do you think he has a crush on Elphaba and do you think he knew or do you think he didn’t?  Do you think Fiyero started to have a crush on Elphaba on his days in Shiz?

Conclusion of Analyzing Wicked Characters

The past couple of days, I have spent my blog posts analyzing the Wicked characters. Some of these characters were characters I tend to overtook and some I love, but didn’t know how to analyze and one I fully understood.

In the case of Madame Morrible and the Wizard, I spend so much overlooking them and not even caring about them. I tend to forget about their journeys as well. I don’t even care about them.

Just like Madame Morrible and the Wizard, I tend to overlook Boq and Nessa as well. But through analyzing them, I realized that I don’t overlook them as much as I thought. They are actually part of the complex romantic arc that is in Wicked, which actually creates a love pentagon of sorts.

When it comes to Elphaba, Fiyero, and Glinda, I love them. They are characters that I am emotionally connected to. All three of them are part of a confusing love triangle. Glinda and Elphaba are best friends who originally hate each other. Fiyero and Glinda learn to accept Elphaba for who she really is and that is a huge reason why I love them. Glinda is outgoing, funny, and popular and Fiyero truly matures throughout the course of the musical because he does start out as being rather rude.

Elphaba is a character that means so much to me. She means more to me than Glinda and Fiyero. She is strong, smart, determined, big-hearted, talkative, courageous, unique, and believes in equality and staying true to herself.

It is crazy analyzing these characters if you only spent time getting to know three of them. So trying to write an analysis for Boq, Nessa, Madame Morrible, and the Wizard is crazy because I never really took the time to get to know them.

Who is your favorite Wicked character or characters and why?

Analysis of Nessa

Nessa is another Wicked character that I keep on overlooking. Like Boq, she is secondary and she also is involved in the romantic complex that is found in Wicked.

Major Spoilers:

Nessa is Elphaba’s younger sister, who is disabled and in a wheelchair. Her father spoils Nessa, which shows that Nessa is favored over her sister. Nessa’s father made special arrangements for Nessa to stay with Madame Morrible.


In the whole “Dancing Through Life” scene, Glinda kindly asks Boq to ask Nessa to the dance. This is where Nessa fits into the whole romantic complex that is in Wicked. Well, during the dance, Boq tries to tell Nessa why he asked her to the dance, but wasn’t able to . Nessa believed it was because he felt sorry for her. Boq quickly goes to tell her that she is beautiful. Well, Nessa has fallen in love in Boq. Well, so Nessa loves Boq and Boq loves Glinda and Glinda loves Fiyero. Boy, Wicked has a complicated romantic arc.


Many scenes later in act II, Nessa has become governor of Munckinland after her father died. Elphaba has arrived to try to ask Nessa for help because she knows that her father will listen to Nessa. It turns out that Elphaba’s father died out of shame. It seems that Nessa has betrayed her sister. But through Nessa’s role as governor, she has imprisoned all the Munchkins because she is so in love with Boq. Nessa really believes that Elphaba has betrayed her and hasn’t done any good for her. Elphaba realizes there is something she can do for her sister and puts a spell on Nessa’s shoes and it allows her to walk for the first time.

Boq seeing that Nessa no longer needs her assistance wants to find Glinda to tell Glinda about his love for her. Well, this angers Nessa seeing that Boq doesn’t love her and discovering about the spell book tries to put a spell on Boq to keep him from going, but the spell went wrong, which caused Boq’s heart to start shrinking. Nessa seeing the damage she has done urgently asks Elphaba to save him and Elphaba turns him to tin because it is the only spell that can save him. Well, after Boq wakes up, Nessa actually places the blame on Elphaba so in the end Nessa really does betray her sister.


Nessa becomes the Wicked Witch of the East in the End. Her being able to walk is short lived. She is killed by a house at the end and that is always overlooked it seems. Nessa and Boq’s fates keep on being overlooked in Wicked it seems, but makes sense in a way. Each time I see Wicked, I still approach it from the point of view as a 12 year old, but the emotions are felt much deeper than that age.

Boy, if I have to look at the romantic complex, that is a lot. Nessa loves Boq and Boq loves Glinda and Glinda and Elphaba love Fiyero and the main focus is on Elphaba and Glinda. Nessa is a character that I feel like is odd to overlook. If I have such a personal bond to Elphaba,  why on earth do I keep on overlooking Nessa?  Then again, the center of the story is Glinda and Elphaba. She has a song in the musical called “Wicked Witch of the East”, but that song isn’t even in the soundtrack.