In today’s post, I decided to talk about my journey with the musical, Wicked. I have talked about the meaning behind the musical, but never talked about my journey with the musical in detail. There will be some holes in it because parts of my journey I don’t remember when they happened.
My journey with Wicked started in 2006. I was only 12 and my mom took me to New York City to see Wicked on Broadway. Little did I know that when I saw Wicked, it would have a huge impact on my life. I remember that my favorite song, “Popular”, was the main thing I remember. I ended up buying the soundtrack after seeing it on Broadway. I don’t when it was, but Elphaba became such an important part of my life. The other two characters I fell in love with was Glinda and Fiyero. I remember that I always hated “No Good Deed” and “March of the Witch Hunters”. Also Wicked truly has my vision for musicals, which is a heartfelt story filled with spectacle, dance, positive and negative emotions in the score, comedy, romance and a strong emotional connection.
Honestly I don’t know when it was, but I don’t know when I realized Wicked was home to a love triangle. But what I do know is that it had a relationship to the first and second time I saw Wicked. The second time I saw Wicked was in high school and I was more vulnerable then than the second time. I came in being aware of positive and negative emotions in the score. I feel like I already knew about the love triangle along with the main story of friendship and acceptance. I was more vulnerable in the second round.
Wicked actually was the musical that sparked my love for musicals. I began to understand what an emotional connection was, which clearly shows through my personal bond with Elphaba. As time went on in middle and high school, I realized just how much I related to Elphaba and that is a huge reason why I was able to begin to understand an emotional connection. I even began to understand that musicals have an emotional center to them. The main songs where I definitely knew sad belonged to was “I’m Not That Girl” and “For Good”
The third time I saw Wicked, I was more vulnerable than the second time. For the first time, I began to remember the song that is not in the soundtrack, which is “The Wicked Witch of the East”. I still have been overlooking both Nessa and Boq along with the Wizard and Madame Morrible.
In my mind, “I’m Not That Girl” was still just a sad song and nothing else. Little did I know there was more to that song. I went for a third time because I wanted my dad to get the opportunity to see it and yet he gave me the better seat because the tallest guy in the auditorium sat in front of me. Also I was aware that the love triangle was fascinating and provided a wonderful emotional nature, but I was still confused at Fiyero’s role in the love triangle as in why does the plot twist even happen.
A huge part of my Wicked journey had to do with Les Mis. In the first rounds, I was already aware of sad, but I had no idea that one musical emotion was an emotion I was 100% blind to. “I’m Not That Girl” was just a sad song in the three times despite feeling more vulnerable to the musical. Well, Les Mis made me discover heartbreak for the first time. I saw Wicked a third time a few months after I realized heartbreak existed in the musical emotion, but still wasn’t existent in Wicked.
Enter “On My Own”, it took an entire year for me to realize that “On My Own” was heartbreaking. Well, I was able to connect “On My Own” to “I’m Not That Girl” when I realized both were unrequited love songs. It took “On My Own” and memorizing the lyrics for to realize “I’m Not That Girl” is a heartbreaking song. But one piece of the love triangle was still hard to understand so I was determined to understand Fiyero’s role in the love triangle when I experienced Wicked for the fourth time.
I saw Wicked for the fourth time on January 30th, 2016. By having the new knowledge that “I’m Not That Girl” is heartbreaking, I knew I would feel more vulnerable. In addition, I was seeing Wicked with Gardner Webb, an university that changed me for good. I had an understudy as Elphaba and she was brilliant and so was Glinda and Fiyero was incredible.
I was determined to pay closer attention to him and “I’m Not That Girl”. By closely examining the lion cub scene, I was able to pick up on the fact that Fiyero had a crush on Elphaba in his days at Shiz, but seems so unsure of it, but it made me understand why the love triangle’s plot twist even happened in act II. Also in the lion cub scene, it was the first time Elphaba realized that she was falling in love with him, which affects just how heartbreaking “I’m Not That Girl” is because it doesn’t have room to be fully heartbreaking and is only moderately heartbreaking and the melody sells that. It took hearing rumors of Elphaba for him to realize he truly loves Elphaba and hates that Glinda is supporting everything they are saying even though she hates it. So he left her because he realized his true feeling for Elphaba.
Well, the first three rounds I saw Wicked, I always hated “No Good Deed” and expecting not to remember or even appreciate the scene. Well, my Elphaba during the fourth time made me appreciate the song. I finally could pick up on its emotions, which is another reason why I felt the most vulnerable. I was to realize the incredible energy found in the song along with Elphaba’s anger and frustration after thinking she failed at saving Fiyero through her spells.
So Wicked has had an incredible journey. It has deepened so much over the years in terms of emotions. The love triangle became more and more complex over the years and its emotion changed a lot based on the fact that “I’m Not That Girl” went from being a sad song to slowly building up to being a heartbreaking song. Yes, this journey has a few plot holes because I don’t remember when I discovered certain personality traits of Elphaba at what point in the journey. I still overlook some things. But without Wicked, the love never would have been sparked in the first place. All of these years made Wicked what it is and how I describe the different characters.
The link below is a review from the fourth time I saw Wicked